I've been having a really hard time this past few days.
I don't even know what exactly is wrong, which is making it extremely difficult to remedy the situation.
At first I thought it was stress and anxiety over our family coming to visit next week...but lately I think I just miss my friend.
I miss having someone to talk to that understands me...that cares about the same things I do...that listens to what I have to say and offers appropriate advice and/or comments.
Of course I have my husband, whom I love dearly, but there's only so much he can do. He's at work all day while I'm at home with a moody 4 year old, a teething 8 month old, and a messy house that absolutely HAS to be cleaned by next Tuesday. Not to mention the things I'd rather be doing...like crocheting new products for my etsy store, or playing a video game without having to answer a million questions, or work out without having to make sure the kids are entertained, or take a shower, or eat a meal without having to share tiny little bites with the puppy dog baby bouncing up and down at my knees.
Because I can't do any of those things, I end up not wanting to do anything. I end up wanting to crawl into bed and cry.
I know it's affecting my relationship with the rest of the family, especially with my husband. But what can I do? I tried to get the few friends I do have together for a picnic today, but most can't make it. I tried to spend the afternoon outside yesterday, but Beckett wouldn't have it. I just don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know how to fix myself.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
and have been making lots of yummy goodies, including:
Bacon!!! Is that not the cutest thing ever??
I'm working on a "Welcome Baby" gift for my dear Manda who is moments away from greeting her little Dominic as I type this. It feels weird not being able to go visit her or help her...she moved to Vegas a couple months ago. I miss her terribly; it's lonely without my Target buddy living around the corner from me. But, that's the military, and I know we'll be friends for years to come.
Anyway, I'm off to snuggle with the hubs (who tested for Staff today, by the way...we find out if he made it in August) while we finish season 2 of Bones.
Happy thoughts to all.