Thursday, September 28, 2006

I wrote something.

how do i get over losing something
i knew i didn't have?
how do i mourn
when the morning began months ago?
i know i should
ache
cry
weep
grieve
the loss of our love
but i feel as if i already have.
i miss him, yes
but not as much as everyone thinks.
i've missed him for months and months and months.
i'm done missing.
but how soon is too soon?
do i want another love
now?
(ever?)
love is
fantastic
safe
comforting
an umbrella on a rainy day
but is it worth the pain when it's over?
yes.
i believe it is.
so when am I ready
to try again?
when I find someone new?
no.
when he finds someone new?
definately no.
when him finding someone new doesn't hurt?
perhaps.
part of me knows it will always hurt.
even just a little.
because i lost him.
i couldn't keep him.
i couldn't give him what he
wanted
needed
desired
loved.
what makes me think
i can give that to anyone?
i have to try.
i think i am ready.
but just to be sure
i will wait
a little longer.

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